Life With Boys

Life with boys … in the small hours I was reminded of just how many times I had seen the time on the clock when everyone else is asleep even though it has been a while now … trying to sooth pain with a touch because it was all I could do … wishing he was not so much like me – because me can be really hard sometimes … thinking about the struggle to be strong and sometimes the need to have someone fix it all … he would stay asleep as long as I was touching him, which is why Matt found us both on the floor this morning … this too shall pass and he will go back to road to independence before I know it … and maybe I will go curl up on the floor to remember the days are sometimes so long, but the years pass in a blink …